new day

today was a great day; i went to my final two interviews, which made me happy, because now i can stop torturing myself. i know that i won't get a position, so each interview kind of felt like i was just allowing myself to freely walk into a failed situation. aside from the interviews, i had a great counseling session today. we talked about my lack of interest or pleasure in several areas of my life over the past few months, and i really sounded like a new person; more wise, mature, in control of the situation and of my own life. but i know this has happened before, i know i'll have temptations to cut, and i'll probably give in; i know that my depression will come and go, for a day, week, month, year. this is me though, and all i can do is appreciate the days that i'm feeling blissful, and know that the tougher days will always end. i'm working on it.